The MBA quest of mine has been in existence since 2006, the year I graduated and also appeared for CAT for the first time. I had one call them from IIM K because of a disastrous performance in Quant where I scored 82%ile while the overall score was 99.45%ile. From then on till date, I have got 13 IIM GD/PI calls including 5 for the current year. The distribution has been :
- 2006 99.45 K
- 2007 99.60 ACKLI
- 2008 99.20 KC
- 2009 99.96 BCLKI
And still here I am. I am slowly coming to realize that instead of trying to run the ‘rat race’ of getting into am MBA course, maybe I should realize that its not for me and drop the plan. Yes this has been prompted by my recent most GD/PI experience and may be this is my way of running away from this thing. But how many times I am supposed to take this. A GD in which I cannot speak and then an interview in which I always start from the handicap of doing bad in GD or having a bad and coming down CPI during graduation and my lack of confidence and a host of other reasons. Its all in the mind by the way. What I also see is I don’t have the drive or desperation I have seen in some other people preparing for this interview and this also puts me on the backfoot. Filling forms the night before the interviews is not going to take me too far. Maybe the time has come to bring an end to this annual ritual.
Life as such is not bad for me as yet. I have a job I hope I am doing good in and can continue to do good in. I haven’t yet burned out from the technical work. I have a nice life out of office with some good flat mates and plenty of avenues to enjoy life as such. The one missing element well seems likely to remain missing for some more time to come.
